Oh wow, I've only just stumbled on this and, I have to say, I'm so glad I did! I remember seeing a prompt for it over on the kink meme but I stupidly never checked back.

This was so touching, I literally feel how deep Merlin's grief goes and I think the timing as he worked to get better was very good. I really liked your characterisation of Arthur too, eager but not over done. Thank you very much for sharing :)